Simplify

Okay first of all Assalammualaikum. How you doing. I don't want to know anyway.

I am now at middle east. Where? It is for me to know and for you to find out. The point is I am not at my homeland for the time being. I am away. God please give me idea or something to write on this blog right now.

Bonds, not James Bond that pervert english dude. Bond - a force of feelings that unite people. I hope that all of you will caress the bonds that you having right now with your family and friends. Because they are the ones who will hold your hands in happy or difficult times. Sadly I broke one of my bonds. I put the blame solely upon myself. I wasn't being rational and acted juvenile. The public know that all things that had been done cannot be undone. So to Allah I pray that maybe with the time he provided me would heal all wounds that had been made by my words, actions and stupidity. Forgive me.

Ok moving on. I want to share my practice(amal) for the past week, that means I just discovered this practice. When The Prophet went to see Allah in Isra' Mikraj, he met Nabi Ibrahim at the seventh sky. Nabi Ibrahim told Nabi Muhammad PBUH to meet him after done meeting Allah because he got a practice to give to The Prophet. So after The Prophet met Allah he went to see Nabi Ibrahim. And Nabi Ibrahim told The Prophet to practice this 'La Hau La Wala Kuaata Illa Billa Hil Ali Ulazim'. By practicing that we are planting trees or whatever related to it in our own heaven.

And it is said in the history a companion of Nabi Muhammad, Muawiyah bin Muawiyah who died at Madinah had been prayed by The Prophet along with a group of 70 000 angels at Tabuk. After that The Prophet asked the leader of angels Gabriel/Jibril why the angels went down to earth to pray for Muawiyah. Gabriel said ' Because of his tendency to read Surah Al Ikhlas even when he was standing, bow, riding and walking'.

Two simple things but yet the rewards are tremendous and unthinkable. Allah is generous. But we are so greedy chasing the world which is temporary and unsatisfying.

Ciaoo

Take a deep breath and let it go

Salam kepada rakan dan taulan, beberapa hari sebelum post ini saya telah menyaksikan beberapa perkara yang membabitkan isu flight rakan - rakan saya ke mesir. Dan saya dapati ada beberapa masalah tubik. Kepada rakan - rakan yang terkena bersabarlah, mungkin saya tidak dapat menolong tapi mungkin kata - kata yang bakal saya beri yang juga diambil dari buku ' Dua sisi Umar Bin Khattab ' oleh Hepi Andi Bastoni akan boleh membantu membuka mata hati rakan - rakan sekalian

Dalam konteks sekarang, seharusnya kita tidak memaki dan menyalahkan parti atau pertubuhan - pertubuhan Islam yang telah memberikan bantuan. Jangan lantaran memberikan bantuan sambil mengibarkan bendera, mereka disalahkan. Mereka telah melakukan sesuatu. Masalah apakah tindakan mereka dilakukan sepenuh ikhlas atau tidak, hal itu kembalilah pada hati masing - masing. Biarlah Allah  yang menilai. Meskipun demikian, saling mengingatkan itu penting. Namun bukan saling menyalahkan.

Justeru yang harus disesalkan adalah parti atau pertubuhan yang tidak memberikan sumbangan apa pun atas penderitaan saudara - saudaranya di tanah musibah. Merekalah yang patut disesalkan. Justeru yang lebih berhak mendapatkan kritik adalah parti politik yang terjun ke masyarakat hanya menjelang pilihanraya. Di luar waktu itu, mereka membisu seribu bahasa. 

Muka surat 30

So guys, all things that happened have its reasons. All is written so be patience Allah is with us

Ciaoo

Attention !

I dont need your attention actually, just want to tell that Indonesian novel slash short story "Tenggelamnya Kapal Van Der Wijk"' is epic ! I don't know since when I actually started to like Indonesian's literature but I've got to say that they are awesome ! Please don't hate Indonesian because I know some of you Malaysians think that all Indonesians hate Malaysia. But in reality they don't. All of this hating each other thing was created by media. So be a rebeller don't listen to shiz that media told you. Investigate and read, that would clear the clouds in your mind. By the way 'Tenggelamnya Kapal Van Der Wijk' is an old novel written by Dr.Hamka. It is a worth book to read. Broken promises and the power of love. I LOIKE.

Ciaoo

Respect

What's up ? Nevermind I don't want to know how you doing anyway.

Today we are going to talk about respect. Yes respect, salutation, approbation or whatever. Okay starting with these kids nowadays. Hold on who are you to give comments on those kids? Im your fudging godfather so bow down in awe to my pure awesomeness. I kid, but really kids nowadays are overrated. Just visited my ancient/past/old school the one before my enrollment to a boarding school ( not telling you strangers). The teachers there told me about how rude/barbaric/abrupt/coarse the students are. ( oh my god Im so loving the lots choice of words). And I was there listening like an obedient dog. But Im not a dog you fudge. And just nodding and adding some helpful comments as a continuation to their misery complains. Poor teachers who deserve respect but didn't get any. I asked one of em why didn't they just cane all of the bad boys/girls asses. But to bow to the third most powerful group in the community which is le students *insert troll face - smiling* they can't. Oh man if I am a teacher I am pretty devastated by this rule. I mean who doesn't want to ruin someone's ass if that particular someone is throwing shiz at your fudging face. But I could be wrong maybe the lovey dovey/amorous/affectionate approach would helps NOT!

Come on! we asians are famous of taking beatings from parents slash teachers, because out of the pain and humiliation the outcome is always better. Hitting doesn't mean hate, you get me right? I am not agreeing with those kind of teacher who beat the shiz out of their students. NO. But I am 100 percent sure that canning in front of some people will taught you some lessons. But to cane one must has a very solid reason, or thou should be sent to the hell of ' you cane me for no reasons you fudge!'. Man I hated to be cane for no reasons especially when the teacher got the wrong person due to similarity of face or figure. Why didn't you investigate first you knows all imbecile! but I still love them and even they got the wrong person I just laughed and moved on.. Mainly because of respect darn it! Because what they taught you, advised you and scolded you are essence of success

Okay end of story with teachers. Now move on to your aunts and uncles. Where had the love go? You talk to them like they are some kind of strangers that doesn't even deserve your penny. Fudge you for thinking like that! You scumbag filled with heinous corrupted soul.

The Prophet Muhammad PBUH. said love your aunts as your own mom.
He also said. The iman of a muslim is not complete if he does not love his companions as himself

So respect what The Prophet told us. Man my eyes are already half shut. Gottago

Ciaoo

Bored

Lately I didn't stare much at girls. I mean for about two years I behave like this. I don't fancy them anymore. But that doesn't mean I changed sides. To be more accurate I am not gay. It's because through my long time observation I had become like this. Hmm how am I gonna say this to you. err but through some encounters I just don't know whether I hate girls or I just had lost the interest to get to know them. But I am still normal and yes I'd love to have a wife someday. It's just I got disappointed by how the world is right now. I mean, no offense girls but some of you wear Hijab and act so innocently but you mixed with the wrong company and do all those sinful stuffs. At first I was surprised but as the years passed by that kind of incident is just one of our evening talks. Like 'hey you still remember bla bla your classmate in the year of bla bla, she already bla bla' and the story goes on and on. Same as boys. So innocent when in lower grades but as they grow up the devil inside of them start to mature and run wild. These days appearance is just a mere lie. People started to reject religion and started to think everything secularly or they said it 'logically'. Heh bullshits.

They call it hijab when they wear the latest fashion of hijab. That is not hijab if you are not covering your chest. What is the point of covering your hair which is one of the many center of attention to men when you exposed your chest which is another center of attention to men? When you covered your hair and exposed your chest,all the attention will go to your chest right? So what's the point you showed them? a question which is always get answered by dumb and stupid answers. 

To boys being proud of having pre marital sex and got the chance to touch a female's body is totally outrageous. God had already covered your sins by letting no one knew about it but yet you told it to your friends. And the story went to a person and to another till the whole population knew it. This will somehow affect your future and your image. What if you want to repent and people talk behind your back? That isn't something that you want right?

To all the youngsters who wasted their time drinking coffee and tea at mamak's stall, please stop. Time is gold, time is sword and time is precious. You could make history out of it and even money. If all the money you spent on pointless coffee, tea, or beer session and collect it all together I bet it would cost more than one thousand. With those money you could buy things that are more beneficial to you or whatever. Bill Gates didn't wasted his money and time just like that to be rich. He sat and thought of plans. So rather than spending your time and money on pointless things you better make your first move now on how to be rich/happy/successful. 

I know the following that Im gonna write is a tad bit sensitive according to certain people especially girls. Wear your hijab please. This is an advice of a friend and maybe a future father. Yes I know you dont care about getting punishment of the afterlife which is your hair is gonna be ripped off from your head and your brain will follow it. But please think of your dear father. If you don't wear your hijab your father is considered DAYUS. Dayus is a man who don't do their responsibilities which one of them is to ensure their family members to cover their aurat. And dayus guy is prohibited to enter heaven. Don't do this to your father pretty please? :) 

Nonetheless always refer to The Book of Faith - Al Quran. There lies so many answers,and also Hadith and Ustad

Im no Ustad nor motivator. Just a random normal guy who overthink of things. 

Ciaoo

Angry

Why am I so angry currently. So angry at everything yet I won't show it. But I am angry and I can't figure it out why. Not like when I was in Egypt eventhough things were hectic there but I found peace. Not like here. My patience was always at the edge waiting to fall. I hated myself for scolding others especially my sister. I hated who I am right now, I guess I have to run away again into that small city in the middle of desert. The place where I found myself, my own place of zen. Alexandria. I don't know why but a year ago I kept saying that I hated there but it seems that hate has turn to something else. I want to go there again. I want to face of whatever shit that medical studies want to throw at me.

For A Ling

I've been meaning to write something but I was busy enjoying my time with books, family and friends. And lately I only wrote at my idea slash diary slash note book. Typical boys would think that I am weird. Reading books about medical, conspiracy and love simultaneously is something that I want to do for a long time but can't cause I was always pre-occupied myself with studies and lots of other unimportant things. I'm giving up from playing ze guitar. It's not that I had lost interest in it. It's because there was no chemistry between us. I'm sorry guitar. I sucked at it and always gonna be. But I'm not going to stop playing am just giving up to learn more about it.

Moon Over My Obscure Little Town


Stranger 
Stranger
Someone stranger


Standing in a mirror
I can't believe what I see
How much love has been taken away from me


My heart cries out loud
Everytime I feel lonely in the crowd
Getting you out of my mind
Like separating the wind from the cloud


Afraid
Afraid


I'm so afraid
of losing someone I never have
Crazy, oh crazy 
Finding reasons for my jealousy


All I can remember
When you left me alone
Under the moon over my obscure little town
As long as I can remember 
Love has turned to be as cold as December


The moon over my obscure little town
The moon over my obscure little town


I didn't wrote this, but it is a beautiful poem that I had to share with the public. It was originally written in Bahasa Indonesia. Came from a respected and most powerful book in Indonesia. Yes it is a poem from one of the sequels of Laskar Pelangi, which is 'Padang Bulan'. Okay for Laskar Pelangi fans don't be confound. I know that Laskar Pelangi is a tetralogy  series. But it has the newest sequels which are 'Padang Bulan' and 'Cinta di Dalam Gelas'.  I suggest you to go to The Mines at Serdang, you'll find a new bookshop owned by an Indonesian company (I can't remember what its name and if it is really located there), there you'll find lots of indonesian novels. And yes I read all of those sequels except 'Cinta di Dalam Gelas' cause I still have a few pages to read. Anyways all these novels are rich with moral values and the author wrote it unpretentiously as the novels tell us about his poor, simple adventurous, happy and modest life, there you'll find a lot of stories about poor people and how they can still be happy with whatever condition that they are with. Such an inspirational story that you can't find anywhere else.

And be prepare for the Indonesian version which is for me a lot more beautiful than the english version enjoy :-D

Bulan di atas kota kecilku yang ditinggalkan zaman


Orang asing
Orang asing
Seseorang yang asing
Berdiri di dalam cermin
Tak kupercaya aku pada pandanganku
Begitu banyak cinta telah mengambil dariku


Aku kesepian
Aku kesepian di keramaian 
Mengeluarkanmu dari ingatan 
Bak menceraikan angin dari awan


Takut
Takut
Aku sangat takut
Kehilangan seseorang yang tak pernah kumiliki
Gila, gila rasanya
Gila karena cemburu buta
Yang tersisa hanya kenangan
Saat kau meninggalkanku sendirian
Di bawah rembulaan yang menyinari kota kecilku
      yang di tinggalkan zaman
Sejauh yang dapat kukenang
Cinta tak pernah lagi datang


Bulan di atas kota kecilku yang ditinggalkan zaman
Bulan di atas kota kecilku yang ditinggalkan zaman



Oh good news, Laskar Pelangi and the second sequel Sang Pemimpi have already translated to english ! so  go grab em!

Ciaoo